Better than we were. More than we are!

In a very small prayer meeting Saturday night I found myself with a new prayer. I am very excited about all the great kids in the youth group. They have so much talent, and great youth leaders. I was so happy to get to be at the Ferguson’s Friday night, and see most of these kids and how great they are together. I know I had a great youth group when I was that age! There was not a better youth group around then, but where are they now? I have been thinking the last few weeks, I want Rush to see the great revival that we saw as R.I.O.T. Then something else came to mind. If you look to see where those great groups of kids are today, you will not find most of them here. Yes, there are the awesome few that still stand in a church today.

So my mind was so heavy with this thought Saturday night, that I could not sit still. You can not live in the past or want others to ether. They have to have there own dreams and desires. This is the prayer that God gave me. (Better than we were. More than we are!) Rush can be so much better than we were, and they are going to have so many more kids then we ever did. I hope in some way I can help. I want to be there and a part when it starts to happen. I have thought for years that I would work with youth, and this prayer has just let me know that God is still working on me. What ever it takes God keep working on me, and let me be the example you need me to be!

Not Just Standing!

I have put my poem Standing on here when I first started, but tonight I have changed my thought. I am not just going to be standing on the devil I am going to shout all over him. IT IS PARTY TIME IN CONROE! I don’t want to stand in one place and give the devil a chance to move out from under my feet. I want the devil to know ITS On! These two pharses have been used at our church in the last week. I think they are both great. I am so excited to see what God has in store for our church in next little while. I do not think that we can even imagine what is about to come our way.

On to other things I get to do one of my favorite things tomorrow. We are starting to work on things at the Fire Works Warehouse. I LOVE to work out there. It is so much fun, and we all get to hangout more. This is one of the fundraisers that we do for our youth group. Also to day was Father’s Day, and I wanted to say Happy Father’s Day to my Daddy!!

Full day, and the song in my head!

I had so much fun today! Thank you to all of you that came to my b-day party. I also went to a going away party today. Andrew Newton will soon leave for boot camp. He is going to be in the NAVY! This guy has been like family to me! Just want him to know I am going to miss him! So two parties in one day in one day was a lot, but I had so much fun at both. I hope to have pictures up soon. Because everyone must see my crown!!

Just the song in my head tonight!

We used to have this figured out.
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear you were the first star that I’d see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought…we used to know.
At least there’s you and at least there’s me.
Can we get back, can we get this back…
To how it used to be.

I used to reach for you when I lost along the way.
I used to listen you always had the just right words to say.
I used to follow you, never really cared where we would go.
Fast or slow anywhere at all.

I look around me and I want you to be there.
Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you – its empty and you’re sad.
Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around…

Just so you know I still miss you! Just when you think you can handle things the way they are. God lets you know that’s not the way they should be.

Finally 21!

A little late better than never! I turned 21 on Friday, and it was a day not to forget. Manly because of the sunburn I got on my arms. Any way, people always ask do you feel older? Well yes but no, should I? For me it is hard to believe that I have lived through 21 years of life. But what is even harder to think about is how much I should have done. Days seem to go by so fast now, and I can never seem to get every thing done. I have had many things happen in my life that have given me a different prospective. I feel that you should live in the moment. This dose not give you the right to just do what you want to do because you are not promised tomorrow. But you should look at some thing from all directions before you make a decision. So that was my thoughts on my birth day it just took a day or two to get them here

On Your BirthDay

On your birthday I want to tell you just how much fun it has been having you around. Though we have only been friends a few months it seems like forever. It is hard to believe that we have so much in common. I know that God knows just what he is doing, when he puts people in your life. I have a new shopping buddy someone who likes the same things as me, and someone who will be there for me when I need you. I do not want to think of how things would be now if you had not come around. Thursday night was too much fun; I have not had that much fun in a long time. I can not wait for our party. So……

Happy Birthday to you…
Happy Birthday to you…
Happy Birthday dear KIM…
Happy Birthday to you!!!

Just think now we are all grown up. Yeah right, if it were only that true. I hope you have many more happy ones to come!

Your Voice

All I can hear is your voice singing.
I can see the words of that old song so clear.
See them written on the page of that old song book.
You were standing up so little and young singing so loud.
I just wish the words meant the same to you now.

I know that my last post was about some of the same things but I thought that I would add this one to. I can hear an old friend singing, but this would not be the song now. When I start to think of songs that mean something to me it seems they are old songs. Like: My Promise Land, Build My Mansion, Just A Little Talk With Jesus, and What A Day That Will Be. My Pastor started to sing some old songs to night at church and was funny to me how many of the younger kids did not know the songs. I can remember when that was all we sang at my church. Now when we sing them, all the kids look at each other like what is going on.

So the next time you hear an old song start up, just close your eyes and enjoy it. Don’t think about how long its been since you heard it last, just let it speak to you!

Standing!

You were there when I blamed myself for what had happened and all that were leaving, and cried for months.
You told me that it was ok and not to blame myself.
I made my stand that night.
My stand for what I believe and for all that I have.
Tonight I will stand where you use to stand and know that you aren't standing anymore.
But tonight I am going to stand no matter what it takes.
As much as I care I will not let myself change for you.
Just remember I will always see you in the back of my mind standing.

I wrote this about a year ago about a friend, but it seems to fit all the things going through my mind right now. In my mind I can see the way things use to be. People say you can not live in the past but sometimes you have to look to the past to see how to fix the future. I was very much changed Sunday night. I thought of how I have let things change and how much I do not like some of the changes. So what can I do but fix things. I know to well that you can not fix other people but I can fix ME! Some day I will look up to see these people just where they should be, and when that day comes there will be a shout like none have ever seen. We all have to make our stand. Will you make yours for the one, the right things, or the right ways? Only time will tell.